Monday, January 2

New Year, New Skills

I begin the new year with a new skill. I can give myself injections. It isn't something I ever thought I would do. I'm afraid of needles. Meaning I don't like looking at needles that are just sitting on a table never mind ones that are going into my arm, or stomach as the case maybe.

You stand at the bathroom sink. You take a deep breath and settle into your skin, your knees wobble, your palms sweating, and you feel a twinge of panic. You think of the sharp prick of the needle, of how the liquid will burn. You think, I can't do this. No, no, no, no, no. And then you think of all the people surrounding you in prayer. Their calm is calming to you, their spirits cheer you up. We are a team, and for the sake of the team I will stick it out. And of course the pill for nausea helps. And the promise of a Reese Peanut Butter cup.

2 comments:

lgsquirrel said...

Best wishes for a blessed and joyous new year. Sorry to learn that you have to do these self administered injections. I trust this is not something that you have to keep on doing indefinitely? Anyway, I would do a lot of things for a Reese Peanut Butter cup.

The Bug said...

I'm with you in the needle department - yikes! Here's hoping that you can start taking the pills soon. But you can still eat the Reese's anyway :)